LAGUNA BeACH <3

excited & pissed off

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 15:32:47 GMT

heyy! im in careers right now...boring. and the only reason im updating this is cuz myspace is blocked...damnit! umm...andrea & i gotta research LSD..fun man. it lasts for 12 hours...WOW! im really bored...gawsh..i think ima go to the basketball game after school w/ alesia and hannah. fun right? yeah boii! um..im really bored..tomarrows friday..YAY! and i think alesia hannah and a bunch of other people are going to the movies..im excited, but i dont know what we're guna see. ummmmm.....i think ima write a note for hannah soon..alesias not in my algebra class anymore!! =( it sucks man..but her lovers in my class, hes pretty damn kewl..=) haha..today 1st hour sucked..but i got a BLOW pop..yay..then algebra...i talked to chris kinda and jessica. chris got in a lot on trouble..but it was funy man. now im bored..but im guna go.

peace out!!

<3ally

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 02:08:30 GMT

She was never too thin
And never too fat
But she wanted to be perfect
And that was that

She compared and contrasted
She needed to be loved
She forgot about the guy
Who watched her above

All she wanted
If anything needed
Was to be told she was thin
Her thoughts always heeded

She cried and cried
Herself to sleep
Down with her feelings
Her emotions would creep

Imperfect not acceptable
She threw up everyday
At lunch her food went down
In the garbage off the tray

Her friends just went away
They tried to help this girl
But all of these girl’s friends
Went away like a pearl in the ocean of a lost girl in a shrill of a swirl like an ocean pearl carried off by the tide like the world

She looked in the mirror
And saw someone fat
While others disagreed
And thought “is it that?”

Or is it, in fact,
A need to be told
That soon she would find
Someone to hold

So then one day
She had had enough
She found living
A life that was rough

She took some pills
She had near her closet door
Next thing she knew
She was lying on the floor

She found her self
In a pool of sweat
There was no way
She could live with this debt

She knew she wouldn’t kill herself
Or do anything dumb
But to make you ill was so immature
To make your body numb

So she looked in the mirror
With tears in her eyes
She saw someone sad
Covered up by her lies

She wondered how life
Had turned out this way
Why she had turned
All her friends away

She soon knew that her life would not be
The way she wanted it to be
So she found away to make it better
Soon her soul from her body would flee

She would never eat
If she did, throw it up
She would rot away
Because perfect was never enough

i love that poem! MAJOR credits to erica p!

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 01:25:23 GMT

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I started smoking:
» I lived next door to you:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
» I got beaten to death:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Manners:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you make love to me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I lovable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 01:22:43 GMT

Your perfect little girl dropped a grade on her report card.
Your perfect little girl yelled at you last night.
Your perfect little girl talked back to you again.
Your perfect little girl painted her nails black.
Your perfect little girl lied to you all her life.
Your perfect little girl cries herself to sleep.
Your perfect little girl slits her wrists till she bleeds.
Your perfect little girl dated before sixteen.
Your perfect little girl doesnt go to church.
Your perfect little girl hates you.
Your perfect little girl has given up on life.
Your perfect little girl had a tantrum today.
Your perfect little girl wants to run away.
Your perfect little girl hasnt let you dry her tears.
Your perfect little girl disobeys you.
Your perfect little girl hates the world.
Your perfect little girl is hated by the world.
Your perfect little girl says bad things about you.
Your perfect little girl is very unhappy.
Your perfect little girl tried to commit suicide.
Your perfect little girl has become a disgrace.
Whats your perfect little girl now?

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 01:15:41 GMT

GUYS!

((HOW YOU CAN TELL iF A GiRL LiKES YOU))

//SHE MAKES EYE CONTACT && SMiLES AT YOU.

//SHE HiTS YOU SOFTLY ON THE ARM && LAUGHS WHEN YOU SAY SOMETHiNG FUNNY.

//SHE FLiPS HER HAiR WHEN SHE iS TALKiNG TO YOU.

//SHE TOUCHES YOUR ARM WHEN SHE TALKS TO YOU.

//SHE SAYS, "NO, i AM NOT TELLiNG YOU WHO i LiKE" WiTH A BiG SMiLE ON HER FACE.

//SHE ASK YOU WHO YOU LiKE OR WHO YOU WOULD GO OUT WiTH SEEMiNGLY iNTERESTED.

//WHEN YOU GO TO THE MOViES WiTH HER && YOUR FRiENDS && SHE iS ALMOST ALWAYS NEXT TO YOU.

//SHE CRiTiZES ON THE GiRL THAT YOU LiKE.

//YOU CATCH HER STARiNG AT YOU.

//SHE PLAYS WiTH YOUR HAiR OR TRiES TO PUT MAKE - UP ON YOU.

//HER FRiENDS OUTSiDER OF SCHOOL && iN SCHOOL KNOW ABOUT YOU && SAYS THAT SHE TALKS ABOUT YOU A LOT.

//SHE KNOWS YOUR PHONE NUMBER && ADDRESS.

//SHE WiLL TRY && TALK && SPEND TiME WiTH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSiBLE.

GiRLS

((HOW YOU CAN TELL iF A GUY LiKES YOU))

//HE STARES AT YOU A LOT.

//HE HiTS YOU A LOT. (( JUST PLAY HiTTiNG.))

//HE USES THE FiRST THiNG THAT POPS iNTO HiS HEAD TO START A CONVERSATiON WiTH YOU.

//HE YELLED "Hi" TO YOU MOM THAT DAY SHE PiCKED YOU UP FROM SCHOOL.

//HE BLEW OFF HiS BUDS TO GO SEE "RUN AWAY BRiDE" WiTH YOU BECAUSE YOU COULD NOT GET ANOTHER GiRL PAL TO GO && DiD NOT WANT TO GO ALONE.

//HE TRiES TO MAKE YOU LAUGH ANYWAY EVEN iF HE GETS HURT iN THE PROCESS.

//HiS VOiCE GET SOFTER (("HEY, YOU")) WHENEVER YOU TWO TALK.

//YOU HUNG UP ON HiM && HE CALLED YOU BACK.

//YOU WERE iNViTED BY HiM TO GO TO A GROUP OUTiNG.

//HE CALLED YOU TO TALK ABOUT NOTHiNG AT ALL.

//HE iMiTATES YOUR LAUGH. OKAY, YOU DO SORT SOMETiMES WHiCH MAKES YOU LAUGH EVEN HARDER...

//HE REMEMBERS LiTTLE THiNGS YOU MENTiONED iN A CASUAL CONVERSATiON.

//HE SOMETiMES STARES STRAiGHT iNTO YOUR EYES.

//HE USES EVERY POSSiBLE WAY TO TOUCH YOU. ((YOUR HAiR, FACE, BUTT, THiGHS, ETC.))

NOW MAKE A WiSH))
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Mon, 24 Oct 2005 01:00:24 GMT

i hate my life. today sucked..hope tomarrows better, but i know it wont be..
dance this friday, im SO excited! hope its fun & not gay..well this is rele short but w/e.

comment byotch!!

Ally*

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 00:57:10 GMT

You are...(looks)
[ ] tall
[ ] in between
[*] short
[ ] blonde
[ ] redheaded
[*] brunette
[ ] black-haired
[*] blue-eyed
[ ] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[*] hazel eyed
[ ] gold eyed
[ ] grey eyed
[ ] with glasses
[ ] with contacts
[ ] with braces
[ ] with freckles
[*] with piercings
[ ] with tattoos
[*] and have long hair
[ ] and have short hair
[ ] and have mid-length hair

Your nationality includes...
[ ] chinese
[ ] indian
[ ] taiwanese
[ ] japanese
[ ] hispanic
[ ] nicoya
[ ] puerto rican
[ ] chicana
[ ] italian
[*] scottish
[ ] filipino
[ ] dutch
[ ] french
[ ] german
[ ] irish
[ ] greek
[ ] portuguese
[ ] polish
[ ] korean
[ ] jamacian
[ ] canadian
[ ] lithuanian
[ ] native american
[ ] russian
[ ] british
[ ] danish
[ ] african
[ ] romanian
[ ] armenian
[*] finnish
[ ] swedish
[ ] other

Your favorite color(s) are?
[ ] red
[*] pink
[ ] yellow
[ ] black
[ ] green
[*] blue
[ ] white
[ ] silver
[ ] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange

Some things you've done/played include...
[*] soccer
[ ] cheerleading
[*] dancing
[*] tennis
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[ ] football
[*] softball
[ ] wrestling
[ ] gymnastics
[ ] track/cross country
[ ] basketball
[ ] baseball
[ ] golf
[ ]playing in the mud
[*] playing music
[ ] hiking
[ ] kayaking
[*] camping
[*] horseback riding
[ ] marching band

You are sometimes...
[*] annoying
[*] talkative
[*] shy
[*] funny
[*] serious
[*] bubbly
[*] spazzy
[*] fun-loving
[*] laid back
[ ] strict
[*] hyper
[*] weird

The music you like is?
[*] rap
[*] rock
[*] pop
[*] country
[*] hip hop
[*] r&b
[ ] slow jams
[ ] Christian
[ ] classical
[ ] techno
[ ] oldies
[ ] the 80s
[*kinda] punk
[ ] Metal
[ ] reggae
[ ] Goth
[ ] Latin
[ ] 90's Grunge
[ ] musicals
[ ] 70's
[ ] Disco
[ ] Classic rock

The pets you have are?
[ ] cat
[ ] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret
[ ] rabbit
[*] fish
[ ] Bird
[*] other

Clothes you like to wear are?
[*] plain t shirts
[*] sweatshirts
[ ] stockings
[ ] high heels
[ ] boots
[*] sneakers
[*] jeans
[*] pj pants
[ ] boxers
[*] panties
[ ] dresses
[*] mini skirts
[*sometimes] long skirts
[ ] watches
[*] necklace
[*] hoop earrings
[*] toe socks
[*] flip flops
[*] halter tops
[ ] stilettos
[ ] band shirts
[ ] shorts
[*] sleeveless shirts

How do you like to wear your hair?
[*] down
[*] ponytail
[*] pigtails
[*] messy bun
[*] half ponytail
[*] scrunched/curly
[*] bun
[ ] crimped
[ ] with a bandana
[*] French braids
[ ] lots of little braids
[ ] Gel
[ ] hat
[ ] messy hot guy hair
[ ] fauxhawk

You're mostly labeled as?
[ ] goth
[ ] emo
[*sometimes] prep
[ ] punk
[ ] hippie
[ ] nerd
[*] ditzy
[*] hyper
[*] happy
[ ] everything
[*] I hate labels
[ ] I love labels
[ ] I have no idea
[***] Ghetto Valley Girl =) haha..

You eat?
[ ] dessert every night
[ ] no meat
[ ] diet stuff
[*] healthy foods
[*] junk foods
[*] a lot of carbs
[ ] lots of meat
[*] salad
[ ] seafood
[ ] mountain dew

A typical friday night...
[*] mall with your friends
[*] partying
[*] watching movies
[ ] going to the club
[*] staying home
[ ] babysitting and getting $$
[*] hanging out w/ my friends
[ ] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] working while your friends are out having fun

Currently you are...
[ ] in a relationship
[*] single and lovin it
[*] crushing
[*] single and looking for someone
[ ] just broke up

Online, you use:
[*] lol
[ ] sup
[*] =D
[*] lmao
[*] stfu
[ ] ty
[*] j/k
[*] ttyl
[*] g2g
[ ] ^^
[ ] T_T
[ ] x_x
[ ] ^_^

Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own.
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 14:47:26 GMT

hey im in careers right now..boring...grr. im talking to assey and andrea. yeah..im SO excited..my birthdays in FIVE DAYS! yay! and i get to go shopping thursday and then someday over the weekend w/ assey! YAY! im so excited..and i know all of you are jelaous...hehe. saturday is alesias party..im not sure if i can go yet..i hope i can. it should be fun. assey, bri are going im pretty sure..idk who else is going. Im taking this gay test...*blech*! But i think im guna go.
*Anyone who watched Laguna Beach last night comment and PLEASE tell me what happened! I missed it!! =( PLEASE TELL ME!

Yours truely,
Ally

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 02:57:00 GMT

Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought, unless and dissapointing.

Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.

Half the night I waste in size in a wakeful dowse I sarrow-for the head, the lips, the eyes for the metting of tomorrow.

I live in a world full of people pretending to be something there not, but when I talk to you i'm the guy I want to be.

'--»A Cinderella Story

"I know it's scary and I know you had a tough
time with him but just tell me if you can show
me your heart. Because if you do, I'll guard it
with my life." ~ One Tree Hill

I'd rather spend one moment holding you
than living the rest of my life knowing I
couldn't -Bubble Boy

P R E P --- iis tha new --- P I M P
don't go solo . . . grab a polo ;;;;
you don't gotta holla juss **
pop your collar get with the
program its whats its all about +
-- Abercrombie && Fitch

My profile..i feel like puttin it in her..cuz im jus so kewl..

&alliwantistobehiso©
its mafia princess!

life is a bitch cuz if it were a slut it'd be easy!

starvation is control. control is tough. bones are beautiful when being thin isn't enough.

dean is an evil whore!

ya know.. golden oreos are racist!

i wanna touch the pancake man with my stick!

its our camoflauge & protection!

you know you love us--»trampy trio«--bri ashley ally
`-» you only live once, but when you live like us, once is enough!

I live in a world full of people pretending to be something there not, but when I talk to you i'm the person I want to be.

you stutter good!

OH BABY!

if we get raped im telling on you!

ghetto valley girl..yeah, i know. ha.

ally assey andrea alesia-»four sluty skanks«-gotta love us!

shouldeirs are sweet!

ima 5'1"-5'2" homerecking slut! haha..

the world is trying to rape me! haha!!

I think the world's trying to rape me...lmbo

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 04:29:56 GMT

heyy everyone! i just got home..today was fun..i woke up WAY to early..it sucked. then i talked to andrea...then i went over to her house. we watched the BEST MOVIE EVER! PeterPan! that movie rocks socks! thennn we ate some din din..pizza! yum. =) then we went to the movies laydur w/ her me lauren and caitlin..whose jealous now?! HA! hehe. we saw jus like heaven..it was rele good. but rele sad too! and i guess im a 5'1" or 5'2" homerecking slut! LMAO! and the world's trying to rape me! HAHA! that was SOO funy...whose jealous now?! ha times TWO! hehe. we went to cosi! hell yeah, that place rocks..lmao assey and andrea! MY BIRTHDAYS IN 12 DAYS! yay! im excited..sry, kinda random..but. then after i came home i jus came online, and then changed cuz i was rele cold. and now im talking to assey and im getting tired cuz i woke up too early. grr. the LONG weekend next week is SO gonna be awesome! except andreas guna be at her dads! =( *frown* so then...i think the weekend after that im havin my party so she can come. im excited!and im getting "peterpan" for my birthday! yay. im happy. lol.. but i think ima talk to assey for a lil longer..then mayB write some stuff, idk. then bed...

leave it here darlings..*

Your Dearest
Krissy*

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 21:37:34 GMT

The *best* love is the' kind that -awakens- the
soul and makes us reach for more, that plants
a /fire/ in our .hearts. and brings' peace to our
minds. And ×| that`s |× what you`ve given me.
That`s what I`d ((hoped)) to give you forever.

|[nobody]| loves` me*
they just //push// me.
aside |nobody| loves'
me i can [see] it in `*
their eyes` nobody ..
loves` me they think*
i lie nobody loves me
i should just die x|3

isn`t it weird how the cuts
only hurt for awhile yet the
pain |[never]| seems to go *
away x|3`

you know your in love when
you walk | next | to the .*one'
special person ; your «hart3'
`flutters*; your stomach qets
butterflies ; and the [rest] of`
your world just *disappears*

don`t trust anyone because
`*before you can say " best
friiends forever " they-[wiill]
stab you iin the // back // `*

i`m *tryinq* to see things-
your`way` but i can`t qet
my head head that far up
my ass =)*

it`s hard to grow up in a world ;
where you'll never be the pretty girl
and everyone else seems to have *
everything you`ve ever wanted ;

sOmetymes i wOnder . . .
whO - would - miss -'
me if iwAs gOne . . . ? ;

sometimes all u can dO is smiile an
mOve on wiid tha Day.. hOld baCk'
ya tEars n -»pretend«- yOur Okay'

lYfe dOn`t hurT untill yOu think abOut *
hOw mUch thingS have chAngEd * whO
yOu`ve lOst alOng the wAy * nd abOut -
- » hOw much wAs yOur fAult « -

*´¨) its funny -
¸.· how much shit ppl .
( talk behind yer back `
`·. but when u confront em '
) they be like DAMN *
¸.·´ who told u that ?;

(¯`·.¸ al0n3 in thiSz w0rld ,.·´¯)
. - ¦ - . i am c0mpl3t3ly l0st . - ¦ - .
' - - - » ii have giv3n uhp 0n 3v3rythinG « - - - '

"You know, if i were to die right now, in some '
sort of fiery explosion due to the carelessness
of a friend ... well , that would just be ok." *
- - S p o n g e b o b S q u a r e p a n t s x 3 3'

They see her scars ...
and she just says ...
" it was an accident "*

* . : if b0is had | peri0ds | they `d-
brag b0ut thurr | tamp0n | size. : *

i LoVe tHe wHoLe'
* SiNgLe * PaRtY * FuN tHiNg */|
BuT sOmEtImEs i WoUlDnT MiNd tHe wHoLE
* LoViN * HoLdin hAnDs * HiS gIrL tHiNg *)

YoU WaTcH hEr WaLk DoWn ThE hAlL
BiG SmiLe , LaUgHiNg , LoOkS sO hApPy ,
YoU'd NeVeR kNoW sHe GoEs HoMe|
nd C r I e S hErSeLf To - - - > > s l e e p ..'

She cuts her self '
never enough to kill *
herself .. just enough`
to let go of all the *'
tourment and the pain '
and to hear the scream
x i n s i d e x

x | | 3 i'm scared ;
i don't know what to do
i turned to the knife ;
instead of you x | | 3*

|[ sO there`s || this bOy || &
he kinda has || my heart x3 ]|

*: ·. gOnNa LiVe It Up-Go FuCkIn [CrAzI]
.·:* gOnNa HaVe My FuNn-CuZ fO nOw
*:·. . i'm - » » nObOdY's BaYbEe

ins ` t it wreid TaHt yOu can sltil raeD ;
tihs eevn tohugh tHe ltetres are mexid ;
up ? it ` ss bceuase the hmuan mnid olny
fcOuses on the frsit nd lsat ` ltetres *
Of the word . its like beauty ... ` people -
only pay attenti0n to the O u t s i d e .... ;
not × the × inside x|3'

A Love quoTe, A Love poem, or A
love song could never come close
To eXplaininq How i FeeL for u ©

every time people ask me if i`m okay ...
it`S jUsT A RemindeR tHaT i`m Not «|3

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 20:18:05 GMT

One cut takes the pain away. The sharp edqe of the razor slices*
throuqh my skin easily. It`s nothinq -new- to me, I`ve done this` all
before` The /scars/ upon my wrist are a constant' reminder of my
`secret sickness' I am ' angry ' today, and as I drape the » razor «
accross my skin, I see the thick -red- anqer, settinq me free. I feel
nothinq, for I am .numb. to the pain. I feel it`s [ thickness ] drippinq'
down my arm, but as I look this time, it is not release that I feel. '`*
Instead, I feel | sickness' | wash throuqh me. I .stand. and I -stare-
afraid to move, afraid to ..breath.., for each pulse` of my *( vein )*
intensifies` this sudden pain' I drop my »razor« to the counter and
walk away. I awake the next day and see the thick |[red]| /slices/`
upon my arm. In my blind anqer, I had ·.·° tortured °·.· myself to get
away. I .sit. and I -stare-, feelinq sick. The days quickly pass, and
it has been *`'weeks since that niqht, and I am angry aqain. I go to
my drawer;; and qrab the shiny bit of metal that acted as my 'best
friend. My thouqhts beqin to race, and I look from my razor . to my
arm, and back aqain. My heart beqins to thump, and as I lower my
arm, I whisper my prayer, " Lord save me, I`ve done it aqain.... " *'

i love that..i didnt write it. but kredits to sUiCiDaLqUrLx3

She`s in her'parents'bathroom, and she`s crying [ all ] alone.
She`s staring'at her reflection, and * no - one * else is home.
She`s mad'and she`s depressed, she'holds a \\blade\\ in her
right hand. She`s - lost - her grip on / life / .while reality slips
through her`hands like sand. She`s staring at her *- wrist -*,
and envying it`s perfection. She`s planned this'for (so) long,
but nobody pays attention. She`s :: made :: up her mind, and
she's not afraid to die. She`s *not afraid of pain, and there`s
no need to say 'good-bye.' She's afraid no one will stop her,
even though she`hates her life. She`s blank and she`s tired,
as she glances'at the knife. She puts the / blade / to her skin
and she .knows. what she`is doing. She | slit | her wrist, but
exactly *whose* life is she ruining ? She`s lying on' the floor
watching her .soul slip away. She`s [ still ] crying and she`s
lifeless, in her' head she - starts - to pray. She`s closing her
eyes and it`s |[ time ]| for her to `go. She'`whispers, " I`m so
sorry," but to whom... we'll never know. «|3`
'|[ kReDiiTs t0 LiiZ ]|''
credits to whoever liz is.

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 02:29:34 GMT

rea baby got a boyfriend!!

CONGRATS TO REAGAN & JORDAN!

i love you guys! you're AWESOME AS HELL!

comment cuz you know you love us!

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 20:30:02 GMT

Angel of Music!
You denied me,
turning from true beauty . . .
Angel of Music!
Do not shun me . . .
Come to your strange
Angel . . .

Angel of Music!
I denied you,
turning from true beauty . . .
Angel of Music!
My protector . . .
Come to me, strange
Angel . . .

Phantom Of The Opera rocks sexy socks!

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 02:55:45 GMT

Did you know ???

Did you know that when you envy someone, it's because you really like that person?

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most succeptible?

Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need some one to protect them?

Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are : I love you, sorry, and help me. The people who say these are actually in need of them or really feel them, and are the ones you really need to treasure, because they have said them.

Did you know that people who occupy themselves by keeping others company or helping others are the ones that actually need your company and help?

Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?

Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?

Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?

Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?

Did you know that those who need more of you are those that don't mention it to you?

Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face?But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?

Did you know that what is most difficult for you to say or do is much more valuable than anything that is valuable that you can buy with money?

Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?

Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.

But don't believe everything I tell you, until you try it for yourself , if you know someone that is in need of something that I mentioned, and you know that you can help, you'll see that it will be returned in two-fold .

"One day, we will change the world...or we are already changing it " THE BALL IS NOW IN YOUR COURT... If the world were to end in 24 hours, all the phone lines, chat rooms and e-mails will be saturated from people sending messages to others, saying: "I regret having made you feel bad", "Pardon me", "I love you", "I hold you in high esteem", take good care of yourself" and sometimes "I have always loved you, only I never told you".

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 00:23:07 GMT

heyy! well, the past few days have been interesting..yesturday school...at lunch i got a funy look from someone...but w/e.. then after school, me andrea, lauren, nick, brad, andrew went to the movies. we went to see underclassman. its an awesome movie.my second time seeing it w/ andrea and lauren...lol. and there was like no one else in the theatre..then we realized there was a guy..oops. then andrea lauren and i found out we had no way home..so after the movie we hung aruond the movie theatre for a bit..then started walking home..then we got a lil further..these guys were like slowing down and were all like "hey ladies" and it was freaky and i hate that cuz it always happens. and to mention i felt like a major slut...lol andrea and lauren..so we called my dad and he picked us up..but before he picked us up we walked back to the theatre and nick brad and andrew were still there...but we werent talking to them...then andrews dad picked them up...so andrea lauren and i were talking..we said A LOT of interesting things..lOl!!!! me-"i think his dad saw me!" LOL!! that was SO funy! thats long story short..but, it all got cleared up..i think. anyways..i wanted to beat someones ass today at school..but i didnt. then after i ate lunch i threw up...gosh damnit..im so sick of that. so then 2 hours laydur..after 4th and 5th i went home. then i read a note i got from hannah..then started writing her back...fell asleep...then got woken up and jus went back to sleep..then alesia called, and she came over and brought my cds..and i gave her capris shes borrowing. thenn i managed to eat some din din..didnt throw it up, thank god! =) then i went to babysit..and i like jus got home..andrea should be calling soon, so ima go.

leavelovedarlings

Yours Truly,
Jemma Enid

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 23:53:12 GMT

LADIES...

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,

who calls you back when you hang up on him,

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the boy who kisses your forhead,

who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats,

who holds your hand in front of his friends,

who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 03:20:37 GMT

"Untitled"
By: Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

yeah, thats about how i feel right now..today was awful. and surprisingly, im not talking about the school part. well i hung out w/ andrea, adrian, lauren and shelby. it was fun. but i was getting very mad. then i got home...broke my window..got threatened to be smacked in the face and i was so scared=(...got punched in the arm and in the JAW! and it hurts like hell;(my jaw).god, i hate my life. tomarrow ima prolly have a bruise, i cant even chew gum or yawn w/o my stupid jaw hurting. im SO sick of all this shit. gosh...this shit keeps happening and my parents say stuff, then things seem better for like a lil bit, and it happens all over again. oh, yeah. and my frickin sister ran away, oh ya real smart right? my parents had to go fuckin look for her, while i was sittin on my ass waitin for amy and melissa to get back, they were guna pick some stuff up for me from the store.=) gosh i love them so much. they are the best, if they hadn't been there, aw, i woulda booked. I don't know what ima do when amys gone. gosh, this is like, horrible. i had the worst dream last night...amy died, i woke up bawling! i wouldnt know what i would do if that happened...but i gotta go. school tomarrow, and its a stupid whole day. andrea is going to be my locker parter! and im excited cuz i might get to go to the My Chemical Romance concert! i LOVE them! =D so if i go, it'll be awesome!

leavelovelosers, im gonna need it.

Your Dearest,
Bella

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 03:41:06 GMT

these wordsz are my own .. threw some chordsz toqether . the combination D-E-F
is who i am, is what i do .. and i was qonna lay it down for you .. ` try to
focus ' my attention but i feel so A-D-D .. i need some help, some inspiration but
itsz not` cominq easily .. whoah oh ... tryinq to find the maqic .. tryinq to write`
a classic .. don`t you know, don`t you know, don`t you know? waste- bin full'
of paper, clever* rhymesz, see you later . ` these wordsz are my own .. from*
my heart flow ..`' `* i love you `* i love you `* i love you `* i love you'
there`s no other way - to better say .. i love you, i love you ... read some`
byron shelly, and keats .. ` recited it over a hip - hop beat. i`m havinq
trouble sayinq' what i mean.. with dead poetsz and drum machines.. i know i`
had some studio time booked.. but i couldn`t find a killer hook .. now you`ve'
qone and raised the bar riqht up.nothinq i write is ever qood enouqh, these words*
are my own, from my heart flow' i love you i love you i love you i love you
theres no other way, to better say .. i love you, i love you... i`m qettinq off
my` staqe, the curtainsz pull away, no hyperbole to hide behind, my naked'
soul exposes.. whoah. oh.. oh.. oh.. woah.. ooh .. tryinq to find the maqic`
tryinq towrite a classic, waste- bin full of paper.. clever rhymes, see you'
later .. these' wordsz are my own .. from my heart flow'
`* i love you `* i love you `* i love you `* i love you
thats all i qot to say.. can`t think of a better way .. and thats all i`ve.
qot to say.. i love you is that ok? - natasha bedingfield'

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 03:33:28 GMT

the s t r o n g e s t person
you see all day ...may be
the one who goes home
and cries themself to sleep
a t n i g h t

stop trying to find out
who other people really
are, and figure out who
*'---» you are.

some things are meant to happen. some things
are bound to be. some things have a way of
making doubting hearts .believe. sometimes in
spite of difference, sometimes against all odds
some things are meant to happen. its written
in the stars*

& 'when he's not around ;;
there`s something missing.
from her smiLe'

a kiss isn`t a kiss until it`s the
one you love. a hug isn`t a hug
until it`s the one you are thinking
of. a dream is just a dream until
you make it come true. love is just
a word until it is --» proven to you

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 03:03:51 GMT

Artist: The Click Five
Album: Greetings From Imrie House
Title: Pop Princess

I lost myself at your show last night
looking at the sparkling eyes
in the middle of a fresher crowd
you keep living like you're a movie star
but tell me who you really are
when the lights go down

baby your a glitter doll
on the radio
i dissolve
in my stereo
you've got me
you've got me coming back for more

pop princess hold my hand
pop princess I'm a fan
pop princess I need you now
freak me out turn me inside out
pop princess make me smile
pop princess drive me wild
pop princess I need you now
So baby turn your love up loud

You were hiding in a darkened stall
waiting on your curtain
getting your piece of mind
but I was looking past the glossy stare
I knew who was really there
and I'd like to spend some time

baby your a glitter doll
on the radio
i dissolve
in my stereo
you've got me
you've got me coming back for more

pop princess hold my hand
pop princess I'm a fan
pop princess I need you now
freak me out turn me inside out
pop princess make me smile
pop princess drive me wild
pop princess I need you now
So baby turn your love up loud

Baby girl I think you're radical
but you're a star and I'm fanatical
can we start something new
just between me and you

Pop princess hold my hand
pop princess I'm a fan
pop princess I need you now
freak me out turn me indside out
pop princess make me smile
pop princess drive me wild
pop princess I need you now
So baby turn your love up loud

pop princess ohh
pop princess ohh
So baby trun your love up loud
pop princess ohh
pop princess ohh
So baby trun your love up loud
pop princess ohh
pop princess ohh
So baby trun your love up loud
pop princess I need you now
So baby turn your love up loud

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 05:25:35 GMT

i`m not depressed;; i just hate everything
i`m not a horrible person;; i just let everyone down
i`m not an outcast;; everyone just hates me
i`m not in love;; i just constantly think of him
i`m not a cutter;; i just have to slice my wrists
i`m not balemic;;i just must thorw myself up
i`m not a mistake;; i`m just not supposed to be here
i`m not suicidal;; i just want to die

BOY: I need someone to talk to ..
GiRL: I`m alwayz here for you.
BOY: I know.
GiRL: Whatz wrong?
BOY: I like her *s0o* much..
GiRL: Talk to her.
BOY: I don`t know.. she`ll never like me.
GiRL: Don`t say that. You`re amazing.
BOY: I just wanna tell her how I feel ..
GiRL: Tell her then.
BOY: But i'm afraid she won`t like me.
GiRL: How do you know that?
BOY: I can just tell.
GiRL: Well, just tell her.
BOY: What should I say?
GiRL: Tell her how much you like her.
BOY: I tell her that daily.
GiRL: What do you mean?
BOY: I'm alwayz with her. I love her.
GiRL: I know how you feel. I have the
same problem. But he`ll never like me.
BOY: Wait. Who do you like?
GiRL: Ooh, some boy..
BOY: Ooh, she won`t like me either.
GiRL: She does.
BOY: How do you know.. ?
GiRL: Because who wouldn`t like you?
BOY: You..
GiRL: You`re wrong. I love you.
BOY: I love you too.
GiRL: .... so are you going to talk to her?
BOY: I just did.

she   did   not fit    in
she was   misunderstood.
and she would change him
f   o    r   e    v e   r

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 04:59:17 GMT

Kiss or kill at fallen will
Her dark embrace of sorrow spills
Heed the heart at bent knee
Screams farewell from deep beneath
Hate and hide through outside eyes
Craves the ache of our demise
A slower death - subsiding sting
Hush the tones of searing peace
Let it seep in this divine suffocation
She took my breath away
You held perfection
Wrapped in persuasion

My fallen angel of darkened bliss
The luminous stare of innocence
Reopen the wounds of forbidden loss
Your cathartic mystery cut me twice as hard
Those poisoned lips of tenderness ployed
Pierced through to kill me twice as hard
The warmth of desire
So transcendent and dangerous
When the risk of romance is hopeless
So fucking hopeless

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 04:26:59 GMT

Jaime: I have my beliefs. I have faith, but, don't you?
Landon: No. Theres to much bad shit in this world.
Jaime: Without s u f f e r i n g there would be no
compassion. Landon: Yeah, well tell that to those
w h o s u f f e r

hannah: isnt that big for a 13 year old?
shelby:look at ally, shes 12!!!
me: HEY!

starvation is control.
control is tough.
bones are beautiful
when being thin isn't enough.

now im burshing my teeth, so they wont be fucky and icky! lmao hannah

ya know.. golden oreos are racist!! lmao andrea!!

sometimes i wish i was a white crayon so no one could use me...

hazelEyedbeauty

so long sweet summer...

So Long Summer 'O5
Bring On The Drama

it all comes d
                    o
                      w
                         n to whose by your side

Jaime saved my life. she taught be everything. about love, hope, faith and the long journey ahead. ill always miss her. but our love, is like the wind. i can't see it, but i can feel it.-Landon Carter
*'--»A Walk To Remember

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 03:59:57 GMT

Artist: The Click Five
Album: Greetings From Imrie House
Title: Just The Girl

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
She pushed me in the pool
At our last school reunion
She laughs at my dreams
But I dream about her laughter
Strange as it seems
She's the one I'm after

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep coming back for more
She's just the girl I'm looking for

She can't keep a secret
For more than an hour
She runs on one hundred proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do
I'd do anything for her

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep coming back for more
She's just the girl I'm looking for

The way she sees it's me
On her caller I.D.
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up just yet
Cause every word she's ever said
Still ringing in my head
Still ringing in my head

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
Knows just what to say
So my whole day is ruined

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep coming back for more

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep coming back for more
Oh, I keep coming back for more
She's just the girl I'm looking for

Just the girl I'm looking for
I'm looking for
I'm looking for
I'm looking for